So, sometimes customers at work make conversation with me and ask me if I'm in school. I tell them that I graduated from UCLA. Most people are nice enough to let it rest, but the other day this middle aged guy proceeded to lecture me for fifteen or so minutes about my life ...seriously. It was weird and mean. He was clearly an idiot. Some of the things he said were that "history is just memorization" (lol) and that I "should be a math teacher because I need logic in my life" and that the job I had at UCLA working with a center that advocated for history in the K-12 classroom was "just a hobby, not a job." ....Just a few gems.
I really, really, really hate my job. REALLY REALLY REALLY. Most customers are OK, but every so often some jackass comes along and makes me feel bad. I can honestly say that I don't take much stock in what stupid things people say to me, but the things people say to me DO make me think and evaluate. Obviously, I don't like working in a retail job, especially after graduating from a good university with a good GPA and various other accomplishments under my belt. Questions about the real worth of my degree, the direction my life is heading, and my own self-worth weigh heavily on my mind each day.
There's no real point to this. I just feel shitty.
people are dumb. I THINK YOU'RE AWESOME. i shall return to san jose soon and we can rant about post-grad life together, yes?
ReplyDeleteyess ;___; thank you
ReplyDeletewhich is all the more reason you should call in sick on sunday so you can come to my bbq
ReplyDeleteHonestly I don't really like telling people where I went for college. I just say "I went to college in LA" they either ask "which college in LA?" or automatically assume UCLA or they don't bother to ask. But anyways, the reason why I don't want to tell people is because some people would assume I would know better like if I make a mistake at work that sort of thing. But you know, college never taught me how to work in a job.
ReplyDeleteI can definitely see where you're coming from Katrina. I still have a year to graduate, but I'm anxiously wondering if I'm earning a degree that will take me anywhere.
ReplyDeleteThat being said, I think he's a dickhole of an idiot for assuming that history is just memorization--which we both know is total bullshit. But whatever.
When I worked at Godiva, I had customers who would occasionally comment on my education, and Catherine actually had someone say to his daughter, in front of her, that UNT was a school for kids who couldn't get into SMU (the rich preppy school in Dallas)--nevermind the cost of SMU and the fact that, for as expensive as it is, you might as well go somewhere else.
I run into people like that all the time ;___;
ReplyDeleteHey Katrina :) I found you via Julie's blog and I really relate to this post. Before I graduated I was so excited about future prospects, I wasn't sure what I wanted to do but I hoped I would figure it out. I only really sorted out what I wanted to do in my head last September. Right now I'm trying to organise work experience, which is an absolute pain in the ass to do, so I will hopefully get into a clinical embryology trainee scheme in the UK. The running around and between people is frustrating!
ReplyDeleteRight now I keep going into, as you describe, 'Questions about the real worth of my degree, the direction my life is heading, and my own self-worth weigh heavily on my mind each day.' Just a general feeling of crapness and being demoralised.
I really hope you can find something uplifting to take your mind off these feelings.
I'm starting to look into volunteer work and other clinical lab experience to take my mind off the bigger picture but work towards my goals. My boyfriend has been good at handling when I have my 'debbie downer' moments about my unemployment gap and everything taking so long to get into order.
That lecturing guy *growls* bet it was hard to bite your tongue and not give back some gems of your own,
Nikki