i wish i were better with words so i could express myself... ambivalence toward everyone and contempt for the world at large ... i could talk about those dark shapes lurking in the periphery (growing nearer every day)...and state in clear terms why people who tailgate are terrible human beings. sometimes i ingest something that just annoys me so much that it makes me want to create my own art, just so i can say that's not how it is, this is how it is.  i could really stick it to the writers of the bible and the people behind the movie "saw" and prove to the world that serial killers aren't cool.  being irked is a great motivator. i wish i could say i were inspired by things like a sunny day or looking into my lover's eyes but it wouldn't be true.  a bunch of phrases come to mind, notably that micheal jackson song that goes "leave me aloooooone" playing in repeat over and over in my mind....it's the only line from the song that i can remember.